Art is a necessity for me. I’ve finally started writing again, but mainly for me. Editing, doing a little bit here and there. Cranked out some words for me and it felt good. It’s kind of like working out after you haven’t been to the gym in what feels like a lifetime. You have to find your voice all over again. I put it down for a while. I had to get my world in order. I was spinning so many plates… I was donating a small percentage to so many different things but not giving any one thing 100%.

It felt really good though, to build a foundation and then move to what feeds me, what fills me, creatively. You need to be able to do that in this life. You need to commit to what makes you happy. Family should always come first, no matter what. It’s something you need, and something you need to find with your heart. Then, you have to find that thing…that thing that fulfills you. The real you. The you that is expressed in the most non-traditional of ways. The you that fills to the brim with excitement and anticipation to show the world your thoughts, the you that wears your heart on your sleeve, your passion on the outside for everyone to see. You wear your scars as a badge of honor and your work reflects that. Your work is your love, that other thing that sits out in the open, warts and all, for the world to drink in.

It’s in the words, the art, the music, the comedy, the blues and blacks, the hues of red, the graphite, the coal, the flow of the guitar and the pull of the bass… it’s all those things and then some that fuels us. You can see it in us. You can see it’s what adds that last little part to us. We need this. Some of us have no idea how to express ourselves without this, some of us can but we just aren’t the same without it. It might take a few months for some, a few years for others. It doesn’t matter. As long as you find that love, that thing that feeds your soul and leaves you feeling spent in the best possible way… it just doesn’t matter what it is. Art is necessary for some. Art is definitely a necessity for me and for the first time in a little while, I feel like I’ve finally put that one little piece back where it belongs. And it feels pretty damn good.

You ever dug a hole for yourself so deep, you thought there was no way out? That’s where I was. It wasn’t anything crazy serious like one of my really screwed up characters, just a hole. One that felt never ending. Not sure if that should have been hyphenated but whatever. The point is, I felt like I was just digging further and further. I’m through digging. Now it’s time to climb out. I certainly haven’t done myself any favors these past few months, just kind of dabbling in creativity when I should be drinking it in.

I feel ready to get back in the mix. I will have a timetable up soon enough for my relaunch. More to come later. Thanks for your patience and your time.

I haven’t posted anything in a long time. I’ve been dealing with a lot of things. To say that I live with stress is being kind. The only nice part about the stresses that I live with is they are not brought about by my wife and my daughter. It is everything else that has been wrecking havoc on my world. That is almost over though and I couldn’t be more grateful. I am ready to get back on the horse and ride that bastard all the way to success. I will make this happen. I just needed a bit of recovery time, a fair enough chance to get my life back together and rip through my barriers.

I am still writing, as you might have seen if you follow me on Twitter. I am extremely grateful to Sara at http://www.thenerderypublic.com for giving me a chance to post stuff here and there, keeping the creative juices flowing. I am now ready to push through and take that last big step to get back into the game. So yeah, time to get this thing up and running again. Thanks for being so patient. Hope all is going smashingly well for everyone. Stay tuned for more stuff.

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So on of the things that I thought was a bit strange is how many people thought that Kickstarter was a fairly easy thing. You go on, put your project up, talk it up a bit and if people likes it, they buys it. Right? It’s not that easy? OH COME ON!!! How much work can it POSSIBLY require? I mean, it’s not like a job or anything, where you go and show up and do all the things and make a couple of nickels you can rub together and buy other stuff, right?

If you are sitting on the sidelines right now and you are contemplating putting up a Kickstarter, do yourself a huge favor and research the HELL out of that service. It is a wonderful service, so don’t worry so much about the company. Research the experience. You have no idea what you are getting yourself into.

I loved it. I loved every minute of that campaign and it was a bummer that I had to suspend it. The problems that I found though were that most people have no idea what is involved in something like this. They don’t know the ups and downs, they doubts that come up, the work involved and the hours you pour into this thing. Especially those who aren’t actually involved in any form of publishing. I had family members who had no idea the amount of work that I was putting in on this. They had no idea I was sleeping an average of about 4 hours a night because of the amount of time I was dedicating to this project.

You look at every aspect of yourself when working on something like this. You look at your project and you wonder if you could have done more, if there was something you could have done to make this a bit more successful. You second guess your moves but realize you have to pull through. It is hard work and it doesn’t get easier. People told me going in how hard it was and while I believed them, I also knew that I had no idea what I was in for. It’s like raising a child. People can tell you all they want about how it is when you become a new parent, but until you experience it, firsthand, you have no idea.

That being said, I can’t wait to get my Kickstarter back up and running in February. It’s exhilarating when someone buzzes in with a new pledge. And they are not donating. They are buying your product. They saw something you made and they liked it and wanted to buy it. That to me is outstanding. Keep an eye out for it peeps!

Here we go! Just a quick linky link! Thanks for all your support!
The Marvel